TO ABANG WAN....

if you're reading dis bro , just wanna tell eu dat i'm okay and i'm alright ..
cume adeq Lom mamam agik ..
no mood ..
Abg eu no need to worry bout mie ..
i promise i'll take care of myseLf okehy ..
thanks for ur concern bro ..
Luv eu abang! muah !

haiiishh ..
feel like killing myself ..
tapi buat pe nk bunoh diri ..
nuthing will change ..
the last thing i wanna sae to eu afad,,
is dat ..
haiish ..
nvm..
if i said it here , as if u're reading only ..
i just pray the very best for eu afad ..

AAAARGGGGGGGH !!!!!!
God why eu did dis to miee ...
i cant leave dis wae ....
and now he's leaving me ,, to hys sentence...
for three long years God.... how am i supposed to bear wif mai misses for hym???
without hearing hys voice ..
without seeing hys face ..
all i could do is write letter to hym .
dis year's raye's didnt mean anything to me..
i hope to celebrate wif hym are ALL GONE !!!!
if only someone really understands my feelings rite now .
i should have called hym yesterdae night..
and talk to hym for the last time.
hearing hys voice for the last FUCKING time..
and now he's far away from mie ..
i will wait for hym .. AND DATS FOR SURE !!!
i regret it so damn much !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH !!! AFAD !!!!!
kalau aku rindu kau mcm ane ??!!!!!
plllssss !!
i wanna DIE !!!
hubby dont make mie crying .............................
hey people ..
see eu in heaven ..
gudbye ,

AAAARRRRRRGGGGHHH !!!!!

bebs . i dont know what on earth am i doing .
guess what ? i've asked Adam to let mie go, and he did (with a heavy heart).
he keeps on falling sick when i left hym . he dont want to eat .
he keeps on thinking bout dying .
i'm so fucking worried bout hym .
the only thing dat can make hym secured & happy is to be wif hym back .
well i cant . i stiLL got Fad to settLe .
haiish . i just hope he'LL find another gerl dat can make hym happy .

WAH !!!!
i played timer seii . and it was onLy yesterday . i Love the first guy more than the second guy . Let's describe bout hym a little bit .

Hys name , Adam Farid . Working as a what i don't know . hys camp is at CCK . anytime i wanna meet hym, i can . coz he's always free . he's caring , fun , REALLY EXTREMELY understanding , he really lerves me alot that he don't even have the hart to scold me for what i did to hym yesterday noon . ( aku paitaow dierk )
i dunnoe if he's sincere wif mie not, but i think yupp !
i just give hym A chance . just to know hym better .

A quick brief on my first guy...

Hys name , Fad . currently in NS at Jalan Bahar . next two weeks finish . wow !!
hmm . by just listening to hys voice and the way he says to me , i can say that he's FUCKING SINCERE with mie . he dont care how the hell i look . he's very humble in person . never talk dirty things with mie . ( i Liike !!! )
he's kind, understanding && more !!

So , which one shouLd i leave ??
Fad or Farid ??

I AM CRUEL !!!!!

haiiiss ..

i'm so cruel towards hym . seriously . he really lerve me alot . he really care for mie . but my intension to be with hym is just to busterd on hym . how could i do that ?!
why never i think ?! i ask hym to let mie go . he don't want . i beg hym , he refuse to . i don't know what else to do to make hym hate me . i'm not suitable for hym . yet, he dont understand !
I'VE TRIED TO EXPLAIN . he dont wanna hear . argh !! i'm all stressed up !

i just want hym to let mie go && find other girl that really love hym . not like ME !!
he's just too good for mie .
God , show me the right way . =(

this blog really make me go mad..!!!!!

OH MAII GOD..!!!

II'M CHATTIING WIITH A RETARDED GUY..!!

ARGH !!! HELP MIIEEE..!!

AHAHAHAHA..